Tuesday, November 21, 2006

At last its all over!!!

Assalamualaikum my frens...i have finally finished my masters!! yahoo..i still can't believe it, that i have gone through these 2 years...which could have been 1 and 1/2 years...after all the pain and crying and exhaustion a mother to a special needs child had to go through...its finally done...its all over...

though, i'm not really looking forward to my results this sem...ya Allah, please let me lepas sume yea..but all in all..i'm glad its done for! and right now, i'm just looking forward to graduate next year in april, Insya-Allah, wear nice clothes and shoes for the convo! hahahaa...tu aje pun tengah fikir nie..

and now...drum roll please.....its all about Ridhwan! yes, ladies and gentlemen, now that I have all the time that I want to myself, the time goes to my young hero, my son, Ridhwan..

had a few series of follow up check-up with the paed, surgeon and rehab doctor last few weeks ...and its all about ridhwan and what am I going to do! Yup, my days to come is solely for ridhwan and his development. Ridhwan alhamdulillh is now 17 months old..when I think back, he has gone through a lot, and I owe to him my time, my effort and my love to ensure that he starts to sit on his own, walk and most importantly, eat and suck a bottle like a normal child should be...

many relatives and friends came by during the raya nie..and many knew about ridhwan's condition and yet many too did not know..but those who knew, I thank them for their concerns and help especailly suggesting whom to meet and what to do..their advice and help have been such a relief and a big help to me..thanks to you all....

It also made me think that now, its not about me anymore, but about Ridhwan as its doesn't matter if I get first class for my masters and do well last sem IF ridhwan is still not able to eat normally and walk like any other toddler his age...that right now, is so much more important...

So, as of last week, my days are packed..everyday it would be Shichida flash cards time, and all the other right brain activities I can play with him...then there would be the Occupational Therapy with Aziah every friday...I always enjoy that session cause I have someone to share my worries, hope and future with...and now we have a fortnight speech therapy session with Aini and weekly physiotherapy session with Sarjit.

I have yet to meet Sarjit, but from my rehab dr. or ridhwan's rehab dr. recommendation, she should be able to help Ridhwan...insya-Allah.....Aini, I've met her a few times already, so it should be nice to see her again after quite a long time..yup, last time I met her was when ridhwan was in the hospital for pneumonia and the gastrostomy surgery...

It is also now, I can equip myself with more knowledge about Ridhwan's condition and also maybe do some been put on hold old hobbies of mine..but whatever it is, Ridhwan would still be number one priority....so, wish me luck, its not going to be easy..its all hard work too just like my masters but its worth every time, money and effort cause its for my young hero...ya Allah, may you guide me to the right path and give me strength in times of hardship or sadness...wallahualam....

2 comments:

Israd said...

Askum Reenaz insyaAllah you will stay strong and Ridhwan will be OK and progress well. I can't imagine how tough it is for u guys..

I read about microencephaly in your earlier posts. I saw pictures of your son but didn't notice anything was wrong until you wrote about it. We pray that he will get better.

My nephew is 11+ and he still can't talk, but he has a form of autism. My bro in-law had Apert's syndrome and only Allah knows how they managed to sustain through it. He passed away a few years ago. These things happen in life and Allah gives it to those who are able to bear it. Not every one can.. BUt my mom always told me that these things are "jalan ke pintu syurga" wallahualam.

drewreeny said...

Waalaikumsalam abang israd, thanks for your encouragement..yes, only Allah knows how sometimes I break down and cry to Allah thinking about ridhwan's condition, but Alhamdulillah the crying now have turn to strength to learn more and be there as much as i can for Ridhwan, insya-Allah...thanks for your prayers too...insya-Allah, will put more pics of ridhwan's gastrostomy tube and his feeding...