Friday, February 03, 2006

Assignments..homework...

I should be doing my homework or assignment right now...but i can't help it to just pen a few thoughts or words in my blog...i thought of blogging in my blog here daily...but i've yet to establish that routine..actually my time management is still bad...wohooo...sob...sob..oh well, i guess i'm still adjusting to the timetable of my masters lectures and also ridhwan's new classes...yup, my baby is only 8 months old and he's in a class!

Mind you, not just any class..its a brain development class! Yup, as I've mentioned before, Ridhwan's fit has caused something to his head or brain growth...his fits probably had affected ridhwan's brain as it is not growing as fast as it should like any other normal babies...yes, i'm afraid i finally have to admit that my baby is a special baby..of course he is special, he's mine!! hehee...anyway, one doctor called his condition cerebral palsy, yes I know, people keep saying, 'oh my? yea ke?'...'is that bad?' ...well he looks normal actually though one must understand, cerebral palsy affects the brain and that may affect his development too ...as for another doctor, she just mentions that he is microcephaly or small head...anyway, they are just terms to scare the soul in you, but one thing for sure, i know my baby is healthy (even though not drinking much milk) and a bright and smart baby boy (even if brain growth or head circumference is not much) ...otherwise, he's such a happy and cheerful baby that captures everyones heart who sees and play with him...

Now, what has this got to do with my homework? oh a lot, my weekends nowdays are packed...and so i have classes on saturday AND sunday..mind you, my body can be quite weak these days..but, the thing is, my homework is a lot too...and i'd rather play with ridhwan!! huwaaa....well, ridhwan's class has homework too, but alhamdulillah, we only had it for 3 weeks..i think maybe tomorrow the teacher will add a new one...yup, Ridhwan has classes weekly...

Tackling my assignments and Ridhwan's daily routine is a real challenge...but nevertheless, as much as sometimes i so much need a break...I realise Allah wants me to be stronger person by giving me all these dugaan..probably Allah sees that I can make a difference and what I have learned all this while about Ridhwan's condition may help another mother to conquer her fears, sadness and questions that keep popping in her mind...I think this is my homework and assignment in life...

Its not the advanced OS homework that I still haven't started that I should crack my head at night thinking 'why, i haven't done that' or the homework I should be doing right now that I should be freaking out too much ....but its my homework that states 'what have you done for your child and the steps that is taken to stimulate his brain and help him be a better baby and at the same time a better mom....'

Yup...i think that is my real challenge and homework....

For those who are curios about Shichida Method, have a look at this website ya...its a brain development class or method to enhance your right brain...its good actually...though i must admit, i've yet to see its output or results...but for now, to see ridhwan enjoying his classes and interacting with other babies, it brings a lot of smiles and laughter to myself and my hubby...may Allah always give me strength to overcome any obstacles day by day..and maybe help mothers out there too with special need children...by the way, I'm enjoying the class myself as they use lots of flashcards and musics and most of all I enjoy the weekly 'Ohayo gozaimasu sensei' and 'Sayonara sensei' songs...hehe...gotta memorise these songs lah...

This mama's one word of advice to mothers out there with special needs children...always pray to god everyday to give you strength and good health and most of all cheerish everyday single day that you have for being given a wonderful bundle of joy in your hands to take care of..as they say, anak itu amanat dari Allah...and I must say, its very much true, they are amanat from Allah...so don't be sad, cry if you must sometimes, but Allah works in may ways and tis dugaan could be a blessing to more wonderful things to come...i realise that...also, Allah always tests you with tests that he knows you can handle and will prevail in...Insya-Allah...and for all mothers out there, take pride that you are a mother, for each time you touch and kiss your child, the joy and happiness that comes with the hardships and tiredness of taking care of your loved one is an endless love and hope from your child as he/she sees you as the wonderful mama/mummy/ummi/amma/mother you are to him/her....Three cheers for mummies out there...Hip, hip hooray!!