Emotional downhill....

Past few weeks have been very emotional...the once calm and most of the time compose me is now gone god knows where and doesn't seem to want to come back...sigh....partly, I know why I can't control these emotions because it is when I am in that condition...and for that, external factors which is directly and indirectly affecting my emotions is not helping me at all right now...its is just making these unstable emotions bursting out like lavas coming out from a volcano erupting with smokes and all.....sigh...

All I can do now is pray..and pray..and pray to Allah to please give me strength at times like this...please let me have some composure to deal with whatever I am dealing right now and in the future later cause truthfully...I really am feeling weak and helpless right now....I hate being like this!!! ....and darn it I am so craving for fettucinni carbornara right now!!! Hahahaa...okay, that's it this weekend I'm going to find one and eat it to my heart desires!! Muahahhahahaaaa......sigh...ya Allah, berilah kesabaran dan ketabahan yang tinggi kepadaku untuk mengharungi segalanya.....amin...