How time flies when you're having fun and not having fun yea...I can't believe it, in a months time..this date, the year 2006, I am a free woman! Yahoo!! Heehee, yup free as in no more exams, no more term papers, no more mid terms or test, no more quizzes. No more lectures!! Yippee! Buuuut...before I actually get to that beautiful date and time, I have to finish what should be finished....Finish already? NOOOOO!
Yes, as always, the lazy mood does not seem to go away that easily...I have one major programming project, one so called dissertation or independent studies or special topic..whateverlah they call it, which should be compilled and send in by tomorrow...haha..satu hapak pun tak buat lagik..actually esok antar problem statement and literature review...and its 11 pm, bila nak siap? god knows...heehee...and oh ya, 2 more term papers, lots of labs and one more group project...gosh, so much workload and am I actually worried about them and doing something about it...nope...naaaah....help me someone please!!
In my last two semesters, my semangat, my enthusiasm was at its peaks...i don't know why this semester it is rite down below, even under the ground, probably at the core of the earth, in hibernation...hahahaa...maybe its because I know that I won't be working after this...not yet that is....so the excitement and enthusiasm to start work after masters is gone..and maybe cause ridhwan's fits are finally gone so I feel that I must concentrate on him only...oh well, these have been the constant excuses that I give myself day in and out...
But the real truth and nothing but the truth is...I'm just plain lazy at the moment..hehee....
I guess, the more you lay out the work that needs to be completed, the more you get overwhelmed and feel that you don't know which one to start and in the end you say to yourself..heck, I'll start with none...heeheee...but I know I can't continue doing this..I mean the purpose of doing this masters is to be a lecturer and for once in my life achieving the cgpa of my dreams...sort of...I have acquired it already in the last 2 semesters...but will I be able to maintain it this semester? Somehow that notion is a bit bleak for me at the moment as I've been doing badly in my test..how do i know this? well...I haven't gotten any results of my tests back at all..hehe...but u just know, u know...when u can't answer the questions well...and you just feel like keeping all your stationeries in your pencil box after the test has started 10 minutes...yup, you just know that you don't belong at the exam table...sigh...
However...Allah works in miracles....the test that you thought would be the worst of the lot, could actually be the best! Hmm....of course no hard work and no effort and a lousy answer paper might not save the test and scoring the paper might be a real miracle...but miracles do happen...as long as you believe and doa like mad...
Oh well, its a challenge for me and I must, I will and for god's sake gal...go! go! I shall do my very best to give myself the boost, the will power to make the best out of my last month of my masters...may Allah always be with me in my doa....and maybe you all out there can pray that i get my butt moving and start completing all those pending work!! Heehee...all work and no play makes this mama one stressed up and very dull woman....Ciao!
Yes, as always, the lazy mood does not seem to go away that easily...I have one major programming project, one so called dissertation or independent studies or special topic..whateverlah they call it, which should be compilled and send in by tomorrow...haha..satu hapak pun tak buat lagik..actually esok antar problem statement and literature review...and its 11 pm, bila nak siap? god knows...heehee...and oh ya, 2 more term papers, lots of labs and one more group project...gosh, so much workload and am I actually worried about them and doing something about it...nope...naaaah....help me someone please!!
In my last two semesters, my semangat, my enthusiasm was at its peaks...i don't know why this semester it is rite down below, even under the ground, probably at the core of the earth, in hibernation...hahahaa...maybe its because I know that I won't be working after this...not yet that is....so the excitement and enthusiasm to start work after masters is gone..and maybe cause ridhwan's fits are finally gone so I feel that I must concentrate on him only...oh well, these have been the constant excuses that I give myself day in and out...
But the real truth and nothing but the truth is...I'm just plain lazy at the moment..hehee....
I guess, the more you lay out the work that needs to be completed, the more you get overwhelmed and feel that you don't know which one to start and in the end you say to yourself..heck, I'll start with none...heeheee...but I know I can't continue doing this..I mean the purpose of doing this masters is to be a lecturer and for once in my life achieving the cgpa of my dreams...sort of...I have acquired it already in the last 2 semesters...but will I be able to maintain it this semester? Somehow that notion is a bit bleak for me at the moment as I've been doing badly in my test..how do i know this? well...I haven't gotten any results of my tests back at all..hehe...but u just know, u know...when u can't answer the questions well...and you just feel like keeping all your stationeries in your pencil box after the test has started 10 minutes...yup, you just know that you don't belong at the exam table...sigh...
However...Allah works in miracles....the test that you thought would be the worst of the lot, could actually be the best! Hmm....of course no hard work and no effort and a lousy answer paper might not save the test and scoring the paper might be a real miracle...but miracles do happen...as long as you believe and doa like mad...
Oh well, its a challenge for me and I must, I will and for god's sake gal...go! go! I shall do my very best to give myself the boost, the will power to make the best out of my last month of my masters...may Allah always be with me in my doa....and maybe you all out there can pray that i get my butt moving and start completing all those pending work!! Heehee...all work and no play makes this mama one stressed up and very dull woman....Ciao!
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