Saturday, August 08, 2009

Freaked myself out!

In my earlier post I know how I kept telling everyone about how scared I am with this H1N1 thingy out there..and yes...it still does scares me...and bringing Ridhwan around in crowded areas is something I am trying my best not to....but then there was the question of...should I bring him to his new brain development class then? ...hmm..and since we've already paid for a term...which is 3 months...to just forgo it would be...oh my, gone with the wind the money then??!!...so then me and hubby started thinking...are we too freaking out with this H1N1 right now...are we actually being good parents in protecting Ridhwan as much as we can from any exposure of even any flu by home quaratine him...good question ya?...

So this morning, my hubby told me to call up the center to see if they made any screening..called..no one answered...so okay, think I have called them way too early...hehee... then decided, okay sms to the principal then...but since my grandmother was warded into the HDU in Damansara Specialist Hospital..that's another story here..we decided to send my mom first to DSH then go to TwiddleWink to check out IF they have any screening..and so we dropped off my mom...rushed to Jalan Abg. Hj. Openg...and then we saw the principal and her lovely kids...then one by one saw Ridhwan's classmates pulak..and said to ourselves..."So how? They saw us already...go in? leave?...they seemed okay...not sick or anything..." ...and somehow, without us realising...or we did...I took Ridhwan and brought him to class! Oh god, am I a hypocrit now?! :( ....so since I went into class now with Ridhwan, I told hubby to talk to the principal and ask her if she plans to do any screening on the kids and how is she curbing or doing whatever with this H1N1 thingy going out...

So, one hour came and went by...I had fun in class...I think Ridhwan did too! ;) ..and after the class I asked hubby what was the principal's opinion in what hubby was going to ask...which was the temperature screening tests on children...and so this is what she said...she has asked Dr. Musa one of the best paeds around and a doctor in DSH and other paeds around too, and most of them say, this screening test is not going to make any difference anymore...this H1N1 is now locally transmitted and there is no way in determining if one has it by doing any temperature screening on them...so in short...no point doing any temp screening on the kids or the adults....hmmm...quite true also cause as it is, we don't see any of these anymore in the hospitals as now only I recalled that our neuro paed mentioned they too decided it was a waste of time as its already pandemic and these temp screening would make no difference anyway...hmmm... then the principal continued to tell my hubby an interesting yet very true point to him....she believes, that they are promoting and hoping to instill in parents and especially children that a happy child will always be a healthy child..and by them being happy, with gods will, they too Insya-Allah will be healthy....gosh..that is so true kan..I mean, its logic too in a way...cause look at us ourseleves...if we are happy, we feel good, our whole body works well and our systems just works at its best...but when sometimes we feel sad, upset, angry..then comes the back ache lah...sore throat lah...runny nose suddenly comes..and many more...true right? ...So today i was reminded again...how one can sometimes forgets and panics so easily at times ya....that anything that happens is god 's will...and we as humans really can't do anything much...BUT ....doa...yes...doa...that's the one powerful tool we must believe in kan...how could I let myself worry so much ya...oh well, I'm only human right, I do have my weaknesses....or maybe its that time of the month..darn it...oops..hehee...

So, today lessoned learned....yes, I may have panicked, thanks to that I sort of cancelled an outing that was planned ages for tomorrow..but then other circumstances associated to it can't be avoided....and so, one must always...I repeat ...always turn to Allah at times of worrying and distress....I may have gone a bit worried, more than usual...plus seeing the situation at the hospital....I think indirectly seeing the list by my paed made me lost it too! Hahhaa...and I guess the fear...yes, the fear of thinking how awful it was to be in the hospital for nearly a month last year still haunts me till today...hmm, haunt? is that a right word here....anyway, the fear lead me to be even more scared and be over protective towards my one son...my dear darling son....also, with addition to my husband's fear of H1N1 stories from close friends and family members....oh well, all that must have added into it ya.!...you see, I thought when you've been in and out of the hospital a lot of times, it should prepare you for the worst, right...well...I guess I am only human, cause truthfully it doesn't...but then, its all about faith isn't it...have faith that your child will always be protected and most of all...have faith Allah is always there with you...Insya-Allah

But, despite the short term panic me and hubby had...yes...hubby too panicked and freaked out! Hahhaaa....I will still try to avoid crowded areas at least for Ridhwan....cause he still needs to be protected someway in another...as best as I can kan...so, for that, just carry that extra adult and child mask in your handbag ....and that hand sanitizer too...you never know when you need it...and as they say....prevention is better cure...and I pray may Allah protects us all in this pandemic time...Insya-Allah....wallahualam....

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